My Father is very poorly.

[Bob/Ohio]

Hope all works out well for your Mom.

Bob

[GHOSTHUNTER]

Thank you Bob.

Kevin.

[GHOSTHUNTER]

In the near future there will be a time when I will not be on the forum due to my having to move out of my Dad's flat and away from the area to a different County.

If forum members do need to contact me, I am sure a few of my forum friends ("Motorman", "fixer" and "YYS4BOB"), will take the messages and phone me, thank's.

Kevin.

[GHOSTHUNTER]

Dad's funeral was Today (Wed 8th Feb). I am at his flat typing this where I am still registered to live. Not sure what time I left the cemetery, but School Children were just leaving School to go Home. I could not get a lift to the cemetery and was going to drive there and back myself, but my Aunt stepped in at the last minute and said she would use her car after all, because she could see I was unfit to drive having just walked round the Hearse looking at all the flowers around the coffin which on it's own was upsetting.I have been Home since just before 7pm and it feels so strange now that he is actually buried, it seems like I've had my Heart ripped out.

Whatever I try and do seems pointless and a waste of time and effort. The night is so empty and even looking around the forum, the excitement and enthusiasm has gone.

I am not looking forward to the later Hours this evening when its time to settle down to sleep, laying there in the quiet and darkness of the night will simply blow my mind to pieces as the Days events start coming back to the fore to haunt me.

Losing a parent the way I have and seeing Him buried is not recommended for a single person without other Family members or friends close by to help ease the pain. I may well be up all night again channel surfing the TV looking for something to grab my attention or I'll be on the computer cursing and swearing at the dam thing as it runs slow because of the bloody Windows 10 update procedure doing something it thinks is what I need!

Rereading the above shows no typing errors which is strange because I am so tiered, I'll be falling asleep very soo

[GHOSTHUNTER]

Damm it, just woke up and its gone 10pm and looking at the post above I see its not finished, I must have fell asleep on the job. Sorry Guys for these Two messy posts, but it seems I was in a state of distress when I started the above post. I do feel empty though as I mentioned something being taken away from me and I still think I have a bad night ahead of me.

Kevin.

[KennewickMan]

So sorry for your loss, Ghosty!

Our very best wishes to you - although friends may be distant, we are here for you!

[Miller]

Kevin, i feel for you. Maybe your night will be easier, if you remember good days with your father rather than thinking of today.

[ClOwY]

Hello Kevin,
your posts are not messy they are helping you getting over your stress from today,
you are talking to us and that on its own will help you.
all the best to you mate,
Gary.

[GHOSTHUNTER]

Thank's Guys.

That is my immediate problem, no one to talk to, so all I hear is the TV on a low volume and my own thoughts in my head nagging me all the while.

Kevin.

[GHOSTHUNTER]

Thankfully I had a fairly good nights sleep. I am guessing because I was so tired, not realizing what a drain mentally and physically this whole affair has been.

I can honestly say that no Son however old or mature he thinks he is, should see His Dad being lowered into the grave. The Day of his passing in Hospital and then Yesterday are the Two darkest and saddest Days of my life so far, yesterday more so because that is it, the final farewell to him, no more Days left lying in the Chapel of rest where I could still visit him, it's closure.

I will go to his grave Today to take pictures and rearrange all the flowers to my liking.

Kevin.